Change Your Mind

I couldn't pull the trigger, so I painted.

I couldn't pull the trigger, so I drew.

I couldn't pull the trigger, so I created.

I couldn't pull the trigger, so I flew.

I couldn't pull the trigger, so I prayed.

I couldn't pull the trigger, so I laid.

I laid in silence. 

Feeling all the moments.

All my defeats, all my gains.

All my cries, all my pains.

I yell on my knees to my heavenly father, "Why must I feel all this pain?"

Why won’t it go away?

Why can't I just live so free, as you say?

I want to fly with the stars in the constellations.

Not thinking of all my complications.

Just wanting to be relaxed in appreciation.

Appreciation, that I have creativity.

Appreciation, that I'm genuine.

Appreciation, that the light of my soul, poured into my heart, and is showcased in my art.

I drew, cuz I was confused.

All the messages in my head, are not normally used.

So sitting in silence, I can get in the groove of my mood,

Showcasing its work.

Everlasting for all to see.

Not written script, so it can be stripped.

But a painted sea of floating colors, of who soul my soul is to be.

Once again,

I didn't pull the trigger, I painted

I didn't pull the trigger, I drew

I didn't pull the trigger, I created

I didn't pull the trigger, I flew

I didn't pull the trigger, I prayed

I didn't pull the trigger, I laid

I laid in a pool of feelings.

Where those feelings were slowly killing.

But redefined, at the same time.

Sketched out, and out lined.

Looking deeper within.

Sometimes you just gotta pretend.

That life is everything you’ve imagined.

And meet that manifestation in the end.

Because this is just where you begin!

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Explanation

Change your mind, may seem dark but re-read the lines. It's about seeing you're hurting, feeling your pain but not letting it be all that you know, about finding ways to cope and heal. It a message to thankful you woke up, being thankful you feel the warmth of the sun, thankful for just being. I pray as you read you imagine your dream life and work day and night, each step and meet your dream in the end because I know it is beautiful. Do not stop, just begin!